“Follow your heart, listen to your inner voice, stop caring about what others think.”
Photography And Spirituality
My name is Ami and I am originally Indonesian but have been living in Scotland since 1998. As a wife, a part time worker and a mum of the two boys I always want to do something for myself and that took me to see the world in Photography that I have been focusing on since 2007. That was until recently when I started my own workshop with people who wanted to learn how to take candid photography and how to overcome their fear to get closer to the subject of their photos so that they can apply this in their everyday life. Unexpectedly, things happened that took me to another direction, yet with a lot of confusion and struggle I have finally made a decision to fulfill my soul’s calling as a spiritual teacher/counselor/healer and therapist. This new path that I am currently on makes me realize that I have gifts from the Universe to be shared and help others who needs it.
A little story about me: When I was a little baby I suffered a lot and experienced many near death experiences until one day the Doctor told my parents that I was unlikely to survive long. My parents were broken hearted and felt like they didn’t have any other choices than to surrender and be prepared for the worst. After years of living without any expectations, gradually I got better just before the start of primary school (at the age of around 8 years old) and to my parent it was miracle. Some of my distance family members (including my Grandfather) were gifted people and they know that I was one of them but never said anything in person to myself. Since I was a kid I have always been living according to my gut feelings. My parents never stopped me from doing the things that I wanted to do, they know that if I survived from my unfortunately near death experiences as an infant that it may mean I could overcome any obstacles. Since then I have always been aware that I am the odd one in my family.
Before I became my true self, I was always looking for something, trying different things to explore, until I found photography while my kids were small. I started my photography journey at this point. I have always believed that having family doesn’t mean you have to give up yourself as a unique individual, to give up being creative and engaging your mind to learn new things. I don’t normally sit down for 5 minutes solely trying to do something. Photography is perfect for me as I can be relaxed while creating photos by going out doing candid, or just editing at my desk. You might be interested to see my portfolio here.
I remember as a photographer I was always tempted to buy another camera and spent weeks or months reading camera reviews and people’s opinion. For a couple years I had my eyes on a particular expensive camera. My husband then offered me it for our 10th wedding anniversary but I said “No, Thanks.” (He couldn’t believe what he heard!) The reason being, I wanted an expensive branded camera but that’s not what I needed. My Fuji camera is, for me, the best camera possible, and I am happy with it. In my daily life that’s what I like to do now, always asking myself: is it a need or is it a want?
I am now living peacefully, feeling content and happy with my loving husband and my two grown up boys.